Tuesday, September 4, 2012


Writers block syndrome!! Arghhhh..... I have prepared two drafts but I just don't know what else to add. Maybe, just maybe.. I could finish them after this..  ok, thank you and bye...

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Sexy, Free & Single

I chose gloss gold for my SJ album..


It arrived.....

On my birthday...


Ok that's all


Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Bengkel Jahitan Manik

It was held on 08/07/2012 at Dormani Hotel .

Some of my beadworks.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Letter to Heechul

Dear Heechul-ssi,

How is your birthday celebration so far. Really hope that you are enjoying yourself with your loved ones.

Did you received a lot of pressies? I bet you received lots of them, but sorry dear none from me.

Did you know we have something in common, we both loved cats. I have 16 of them and I loved each and every one of them.

Ohh.....  Don't worry, I am not going to bore you with my cats story.

My bias in Super Junior is Siwon actually but you and Jungsoo-ssi hold a special place in my heart.

Wanna know why?

We are the July babies, though we don't share the same zodiac.

The fact that you both are hyungs to the boys or MY BOYS, made it all the more special.

I have no regrets falling in love with Siwon in Athena, for I have fallen in love with all of you.. All 13 + 2 of you.

I really hope the sasaengs fan whoever they are, will leave you in peace finally.

Or at least respect your decision to be under the radar until you are release from your mandatory military duty.

Please know this. I loved watching variety shows where you are the guest, because you just couldn't care less of your idol image. You participated whole heartedly and you always made it looked fun.

Your wittiness are your greatest strength and together with your sharp tongue, nobody can beat you that easily.

Maybe Kyu can beat you in that department but


you are YOU and KYU is kyu.

I hope this letter will not bored you on your special day, but I just need to let this out of my chest.

When you decided to deactivate your twitter account just few more minutes before 12am KST time last night, the sadness felt up to now.


But reading your last tweet is enough for me to know and understand how tiring you must have felt going through your daily life in the 'company' of those 'attention seekers' and overly obsessed fans.

Heechul-ssi, my wish for you is, may you be blessed with good health and may you find peace and happiness during your leave from entertainment scene.

Eventhough it will be almost impossible for you to live a quiet life because of your legions of fans ie ELFs and Petals but I'm sure they will be waiting patiently for your come back and loved you no less.

From me Mona Noona who loved you like my own dongsaeng...


Monday, July 9, 2012

Fresh Start

There are times where you feel you could dissapear from the face of the earth!!

There are times you feel that you are being push around by people.

Fresh start..


I dunno really... I wish I could turn back time and press the stop button to the happiest moment in my life and stayed there.


I am not Peter Pan nor Mary Poppins.

No matter what... I need to go through my life as it is.

I just gotta make it better and press the FRESH START BUTTON everyday.

Till next post

Thursday, July 5, 2012

SICK !!!

Sick of people who take advantages of other people, sick of people who thinks that there are above everyone.

Just because you offer financial helps, doesn't mean you are a 'philantrophist'.

It comes down to whether you are SINCERE or not!!!!

I've seen this happened and let me tell you, you will see true colour of someone you thought you knew but in actual facts are living in a totally different world with a different 'mask' !!!

Their 'heroic act' are for show. When they did not received the response they'd hope for, they turned into Snow White wicked step mother...

They 'literally' harassed the person that they help without even asking why!!

Maybe, just maybe, if they take the time to ask and compromise.


They opted to mental torturing method of  those people they've helped.



I have nothing to say to this kind of human being, as I am not sure if they are human at all.

Till next post.


A Friend In Need

How far would you go to help a friend.

If I had the means to, I would ... 

Tuesday, June 19, 2012


I had mentioned about this things called fandom or Kingdom of fans in my earlier post happy anniversary to elfs all around the world

Now, put aside Kpop, I salute the fandom efforts in showing their loves and supports to their favourite artistes make it solo singers, duets, trio or groups.
Any project involving their favourite artiste, the admins of all active fanbases will, let me say this proudly ---- UNITES, and they will lay out the strategy, whether it is to push the votes in an online contest or a simple poll on various category, for example on who is the fashion icon.

Some of the online contest /polling are listed as below :

There are also fans who donates money to buy rice wreath, either to be send to filming location, press conference or concerts. An excerpt from allkpop.com
“These days, Korean fandoms send ‘rice wreaths’ instead of customary flower bouquets to a celebrity’s event (concert, musical, or press conference) in order to show their support for their favorite stars, http://www.allkpop.com/2011/08/rice-wreaths-indicate-that-k-pop-fandoms-are-becoming-more-mature

It’s not only sending rice wreath but there are the fans who supported charity/donation drive for example : an excerpt from gokpop.com “Super Junior's Choi Siwon and his fans manage to raise US$6,500 for West Africa. You can read further here http://www.gokpop.com/news/siwon-raises-us6-500-for-3rd-waves-project-with-the-help-of-fans::11485.html

The latest example of what this fans are willing to do is in conjuction with Kim Ryeowook or Ryeowook of Super Junior upcoming birthday 21/06, Thai ELFs has donated a baby giraffe to Dusit Zoo in Bangkok Thailand (source Ryeowook twitter @ryeong9)

Now, I don’t see that happening in that scale especially not in my own country, Malaysia.
You see there is nothing this fandoms will not do for their favourite artistes / group The sense of belonging this fans has to their fandom can beat those of political parties, and they (the political party) should be ashamed as they are not able to pull such act.

I am a proud ELF, I may not be one from the beginning but I know one thing for sure, once a fan will always remain a fan. ELF or Everlasting Friends, a beautiful name indeed, everyone is Super Junior everlasting friends.

They even wrote a song to ELFs and it is titled “Sapphire Blue – (Sowuhni Innayo)” this is because the official colour for us ELF is Sapphire Blue and it was featured in their second album “Don’t Don”.
There are also fans who wrote song to their artistes/group to show gratitude, such in a case of 2PM. Their fans had re-written one of 2PM song titled “Thank You” which was originally written to say thanks to their legion of fans but it was dedicated back to them by their fans.

Their fans was singing the re-written version to them during one of their concerts in Korea. Each and every one of the group members was in tears, fans included.

It was posted in YOUTUBE which was a combination of fans cam and cuts from 2PM’s DSCS DVD  and for someone who is not in 2PM fandom, I cried, yup !!, I did !!. It was beautifully written and again, I would like to give my utmost respect to whoever was writing it. (I managed to watch it back in March 2012 but the the vids are no longer available though)

As for other fandoms, I don’t really know much about them, but, I believe we share the same passion, same love to our favourite artistes/groups.

What is so unique about this things called fandom is, the fans come from all over the world.
Fans from all over the world !! Let us be realistic here, these are people who are connected to internet,  they are working adult, university / college students, secondary even primary school children.
Those who happened to be online, will go to all possible web link related to their favourite artistes and start to update each other and really, news travel faster especially when we mentioned the magical word called TWITTER.

During my teens years, those artistes from Hong Kong were the ones me and my friends go crazy about. Names like Leslie Cheung, Andy Lau, Jacky Cheung, group like Grasshopper, Beyond and few others. And during our times, there are no facebook, no twitter, our source of info was an imported Chinese magazine, and we had to get our classmate/schoolmate to translate to us on the articles.

Favourite words, khau meng ahhh, toum chu, sek fan and others cantonese words, mind you, I was in Sibu and “national” language there is Foochow.. But I did not take the time to learn  Foochow dialect as I was so engrossed with all things Cantonese.. Ahaks…

Fast forward to 2012, I am amazed at the amount of knowledge this new breed of teenagers had in their “hands” on their favourite artistes /group. You can get an update as soon as their favourite artistes arrived at the airport few days before concerts or even before the drama or film starts shooting.
Even while the artistes was having break, the fans manage to snap one or two photos and update it in their twitter for other fans to see… And I mean, for fans all around the world..


But, even though they are willing to share information, there are times, they will “fight” especially when one claim it was originally their info and no proper credit was given by the other fan base. BUT!! that doesn’t happened all the times as at the end of day, their unconditional love to their favourite artistes / group will stop the ‘fight” from continuing.

Fan base or individuals fans, these are the people who make up the fandoms and they literally eat, drink and breathe their favourites artistes / group.

Ohhh… before I forget.

I have some exciting info to share – my boys are preparing for their 6th full studio album, and hopefully it will be before Super Junior leader, Leeteuk serve in Military for 24 month, a must  for all South Korean male.

No confirmation on the actual date as most fan base are going back and forth with both confirmed and unconfirmed info on the album release.

For the past few days, esp today 19.06.2012,they are tweeting about the boys done with their MV filming and there are also information on Kangin resuming his role as one of Super Junior member after his release from his Military duty on 16.04.2012.


There are more… it is an ongoing process, so there are no END but AND..

So till next posting…


Saturday, June 2, 2012

Happy anniversary to ELFs all around the world

Today is 02/06/2012, it is the 6th anniversary for ELF.. Ohh no, there are not at all related to the ELF in Lord of the Ring trilogy.

ELF stands for Everlasting Friends,and they are Super Junior fans. Fanclub as most of you guys would called it but no, it's known amongst those kpoppers as fandom. Sounded very much like kingdom of fans, don't you think so.

This posting is dedicated to ELFs around the world for being so united, and we are talking about those ELF who are from Korea, China,Japan,Taiwan, Thailand, Vietnam,Australia, The Philipines, Singapore, Indonesia, Negara Brunei Darussalam, North &South America, England, Paris, probably the whole of Europe, Russia and of course my own country, Malaysia. Country mentioned are those that I know are having fanbases and a very active ones with admins from all over. No kidding guys..

They used all popular social networking site, to update each other with news related to everything Super Junior. The most popular ones are Twitter, Facebook. There are also Tumblr, Wordpress, Weibo, Cyworld too.

The extensive knowledge they possessed about all things Super Junior, made me, one of the newbie felt like I had known the group from their debut days.

I laughed, I cried reading blogs posting dedicated to the Super guys. To be honest there might be grammar mistakes here and there, but do I care !! NO!!

Their loves to Super Junior surpasses language barrier, different culture even religion. They also have utmost respect to one another, they share information, they share photos (though stamped with water mark) yet, they still share it to the rest of their fellow ELFs around the world.

They even know the schedule of Super Junior group members, make it drama, variety and radio show.

Now guys, I asked you, don't you think ELFs daebak.. Yup.. they are, and I must say that I am proud to be one of them.

Before I ends this, if you are a new fan of Group Super Junior , you are going to fall so much in love with them, you need ELF to be our oxygen. No joke.

Happy 6th anniversary to ELFs. Proud to be on this kingdom of fans, proud to be in the family.

P/s : If you have Twitter, pls follow Super Junior member @siwon407, @henrylau89, @Heedictator, @ryeong9, @shfly3424, @ikmubmik, @ShinsFriends, @ special1004, @donghae861015, @GaemGyu, @Himsenkangin, @AllRiseSilver @imSMI

Also, please follow @Sup3rJunior, @EverlastingFans, @MalaysiaELF, @Minnieblues, @TwELFs, @WorldWideELFs @CassieJunior.. trust me, there are more.. but I wouldn't want to jam packed your brain with all things ELFs and Super Junior in one posting.

There are more to come... till then... Happy reading

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

The End

Let me put an end to my previous posting on Too Young!! He eventually got engaged to the boss sister. Oh well .. Am not sad though as I've seen his true colour! He wants a good life and using fast track to good life. He wanted car and since it is provided by the company, why don't just grab the opportunity, right?? I truly wished them both the best and may their engagement ends in marriage and may their marriage last a lifetime. The end.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Crushed !!!

Am I??

Better now than later… but it is more like I have been played !!
FYI, I did have a cuppa with him, but though it felt right, it felt wrong at the same time..

All of his interest was actually to see if he can make use of me!!!
I was contemplating whether I’m going to do an exciting posting like my latest two entry or just follow exactly how I felt after having a cuppa and a week of feeling used !!.
I go for the latter.

I need to stay true to my feelings, to write from the heart so that my ideas will flow like a waterfall (I wish !!) and also I can be truthful to myself.

Let me tell you the story.
02/02/2012 - Thursday
I went to see Neilly at the bakery, my so-called normal routine. My way of showing my support to a friend business.
She asked me “did you see him?” He went out with Chef , I said.
Half way through our conversation, she suddenly laughed, then she showed me text message from S,
“Kirim salam ngan Chinta lok, maksehhhhhhhhhhh”
I just said “Padah nya , nya eksen gilak “
And we continued with our conversation. She revealed to me some disturbing matters on her then current situation, but I am not going to mention about it here, as it is very P & C.
Roughly around 7.30pm, done with my tete-a- tete with Neilly, I made my way to the counter to pay for my food and drinks and bread to bring home, but S was nowhere to be seen. Oh well, Neilly did mentioned that he was shy.
So I told Neilly to “ Babe, kirim salam Chinta sikit lok ?!!”
Knowing Neilly, she went straight to the kitchen and told him, I could hear a loud noise from the kitchen then I went home.

06/02/2012 – Monday
Me and my friend, Siti @Along went to the bakery as I had wanted to celebrate her birthday early and to pass her birthday gift as well. But before that, I texted Neilly through Whatsapp asking her on their bread stock for the day.
What I like about the bakery is, they prefer quality over quantity, they will not produce more than ten loaf of bread.
But… let me continue with my story ya..
We went there at around 4pm, but Neilly was not around as she was out buying stock for the shop, but she promised she won’t be long.
We carry on our conversation, then Neilly showed up. And, he showed himself too, guess he needed Neilly to be around, as his support system maybe.
Before we heads home, I had to wait for the staff to slice the loaf as I had specifically request for a white toast and as it is still on the cooling tray, we had to wait, and there he was standing at the counter, showing himself finally.!!!!
I had asked him to slice the loaf, and he was telling me, that the loaf is still hot but I insist (I was kinda flirting actually… AND newsflash he was too….)
So I said, “ Saya mauk Intan payung.. he made a move ala Apek Senario and dash to the kitchen to slice the loaf and then after putting it the plastic, he went out to pass the bread for me to pay all smiling.
Okay,… Smitten !!! both are …. ( During that particular time I supposed!!)
Truthfully, am not in the mood to continue but none theless..
Next…..The story goes like this..

We had our first ever conversation on 09/02/2012, as usual me and my friend was at the bakery to celebrate another friend birthday. We were there up until closing time which is 9 pm.
At about 8.40pm, I left them to continue with their conversation, while I went straight to get my bread and on my way to pay for my purchase, there he was, sitting at the counter waiting to talk to me.
I told him that his invitation to have a cuppa with me has got to wait (I was not ready!!!) but I could see that he was so determined , you know it was DO OR DIE things for him. He told me he needed 2 minutes of my time, so we talked in front of the counter. The main conversation was about how he wants to buy a car and was asking on the procedure, somewhere between our conversation, he was mentioning on how to apply personal loan amounting to RM40K, and how he wants to buy his dream car cash (funny don’t you think so).
I kept on asking him if he is seriously thinking of buying cars, and since I could not get all info as he was practically whispering, he suggested we talked outside, so I paid for my bread and went outside.
Then he asked me, when are we going to have our cuppa, he insisted that he can only afford to bring me to go to normal coffee shop, he was stressing the word coffee shop, I reassure him that I am ok with his venue choice up to one point when I asked him this question -> “Do I look expensive to you !!”

And he said,yes !!!

I told him, never put a price tag on everything you see for you might be wrong.

I for one, never believe in buying everything expensive, it depends on what and is it really worth buying it, of course I had my own weaknesses – accessories - earrings, bracelets, rings…
…. But truth is people, even then I already sense something amiss.

Nay… I’m not angry but sad that I get to be treated that way, made me wonder what did I do to deserve such treatment. Or am I blinded by all the attention.

I cried okay… I did!..

I felt cheated !!
But good things is, I found out about his actual intention as soon as I finished my tea.
It would be hard if we actually had something and to say no.

Truth is I don’t want to continue.. no point as the real reason on his showing all the interest merely trying his luck. To see if I would give my consent to be his guarantor to do loans.
So I am gonna end this post, just like this.

Last I heard, he is dating the sister of the Bakery Owner, happy for both of them. Only wishing he is not using that opportunity to change his life for a better ones.


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