Ever felt uneasy, your heart beating so fast, you feel like it's going to burst anytime..
Hopefully it is nothing.
Those photos are only some from my instagram. Check the rest of them.
My user name monaismail.
All photos are taken using my S3.
Hope you liked 'em.
Oh ya, it's 3/10/13 here in Malaysia but it is 3/09/13 in the USA, happy birthday to my favourite guy from Criminal Minds >>> Dr Spencer Reid or Matthew Gray Gubler... sending my love and hugs all the way from Malaysia...
How is your birthday celebration so far. Really hope that you are enjoying yourself with your loved ones.
Did you received a lot of pressies? I bet you received lots of them, but sorry dear none from me.
Did you know we have something in common, we both loved cats. I have 16 of them and I loved each and every one of them.
Ohh..... Don't worry, I am not going to bore you with my cats story.
My bias in Super Junior is Siwon actually but you and Jungsoo-ssi hold a special place in my heart.
Wanna know why?
We are the July babies, though we don't share the same zodiac.
The fact that you both are hyungs to the boys or MY BOYS, made it all the more special.
I have no regrets falling in love with Siwon in Athena, for I have fallen in love with all of you.. All 13 + 2 of you.
I really hope the sasaengs fan whoever they are, will leave you in peace finally.
Or at least respect your decision to be under the radar until you are release from your mandatory military duty.
Please know this. I loved watching variety shows where you are the guest, because you just couldn't care less of your idol image. You participated whole heartedly and you always made it looked fun.
Your wittiness are your greatest strength and together with your sharp tongue, nobody can beat you that easily.
Maybe Kyu can beat you in that department but
you are YOU and KYU is kyu.
I hope this letter will not bored you on your special day, but I just need to let this out of my chest.
When you decided to deactivate your twitter account just few more minutes before 12am KST time last night, the sadness felt up to now.
But reading your last tweet is enough for me to know and understand how tiring you must have felt going through your daily life in the 'company' of those 'attention seekers' and overly obsessed fans.
Heechul-ssi, my wish for you is, may you be blessed with good health and may you find peace and happiness during your leave from entertainment scene.
Eventhough it will be almost impossible for you to live a quiet life because of your legions of fans ie ELFs and Petals but I'm sure they will be waiting patiently for your come back and loved you no less.
From me Mona Noona who loved you like my own dongsaeng...
There are times where you feel you could dissapear from the face of the earth!!
There are times you feel that you are being push around by people.
I dunno really... I wish I could turn back time and press the stop button to the happiest moment in my life and stayed there.
I am not Peter Pan nor Mary Poppins.
No matter what... I need to go through my life as it is.
I just gotta make it better and press the FRESH START BUTTON everyday.
Till next post